Creating and Holding Space
Why I Teach Yoga
So on Monday, I teach my very first studio yoga class.
I am super nervous, which, I realize, doesn’t really seem in line with what I have learned from yoga. Everyone gets something different out of the experience of yoga – some experience physical challenge, others experience emotional release… I have experienced both of these things, plus so much more. Like learning to relax, both mentally and physically. I have learned to be more aware of my body, and have become more accepting of myself on sooooo many levels. It’s been pretty amazing, and I learned it all through practicing yoga. But getting up in front of a room full of people to help them do the same? That is still a scary prospect.
I have this feeling, though, that the only way to get over it is to go DO it. So next week I’m not only teaching my first studio yoga class, I’m teaching 3 or 4 studio yoga classes. In my first week. May as well get it over with.
I had to pick a name for my weekly class that I’ll be teaching. Since the name of the Studio is Be Love, the owner has us use the word “be” at the beginning of the class names. I chose “Be Light.”
This could mean:
Be the light (Namaste, y’all)
Feel lighter from doing yoga
Keep things light, because all too often life is so damn heavy.
It means all these things. And more! Because everything in yoga seems to have layers. Layers of meaning, and of physical movement, and self-discovery, and…
I’m very aware of trying not to sound like a Crazy Person when I talk about yoga and what it’s done for me. All too often we come across people who have found something new and can’t understand WHY EVERYONE ELSE ISN’T AS EXCITED ABOUT THIS AS I AM. But at the same time, I do want to share how it’s helped me, and how it’s made me want to help others.
For about a month or two, I’ve been teaching yoga to friends and family in my living room – and sometimes in Marcus’ shop (you’d be surprised how awesome it is to do yoga in the fresh air, while looking out at some greenery – even if you are standing in an auto shop). Oh, and I’ve even taught yoga in a fire station twice!
Everyone I’ve taught has pretty much been a complete beginner to yoga. Maybe they started coming to do me a favor… but I’d like to think they keep coming back because they’re getting something out of it. When I watch someone who is trying to learn the alignment and subtleties of a certain pose, and they have a look on their face that tells me they’re waaaaay inside themselves, investigating something, finding some new sense of themselves… well that, my friends, is priceless. THAT is why I want to teach yoga.
Everyone can do yoga. NOT everyone will be able to look like those super hot girls who can do the splits before they’ve had their morning chia seed smoothie bowl (but after they put on their $90 yoga pants). There’s tons of things I can’t do, and I’m almost certified to teach. But I should say – there’s tons of things that I don’t need to do. I don’t need to do the splits or Eka Pada Koundiyanasana I to get a hell of a lot of benefit from yoga. That said, I do plan to master Crow Pose very soon… because we all need a challenge.
And all of us have different levels that we consider “challenging.” That’s what’s so brilliant about yoga. It can be modified to suit your abilities. Some of us have injuries, others of us have restricted movement, and still others don’t really have a good relationship or understanding of our own bodies. This was my case. I’m still working on understanding where my body is in the space around me, and how things feel and how I move. Because I really had no idea until I started doing yoga. Don’t ask me how I got to that point in my life… but I don’t think I’m the only one who ended up there. I’m getting better at it – but I’ve also broken two toes since last October. Just be mindful of where you are in space, people… (or at the very least, where your feet are in relation to your yoga mat…)
So, you are very welcome to come to my yoga classes. Especially if you are a beginner, especially if you don’t think you can do yoga. My purpose in teaching is to bring you back to your body, to help you be a little bit lighter inside.
But if you want to master one-armed handstands, you might need to look for another class…